Saturday Date

I am so totally freaking out, right about now and I am not sure what to do. I have a date on Saturday with a guy that I have been interested in for a while. However, he is over the ten year age limit I have set for myself. I am overlooking that - you know trying to expand my horizons. He called last night after I was sleeping and left a voice message. So I listened to it this morning. The guy's voice is crazy. He sounds nasally and terrible. Now granted, perhaps, he has a cold ... I don't know. But I have already made judgement on him based upon this phone call. And I am totally freaking out. I am not sure that this is what I want to do ... I am trying to come up with all sorts of reasons not to go out with him on Friday.

This is exactly what I do to myself, everytime I decide to meet someone. I find one quality that isn't to my liking and run with it. That being the entire reason that I find not to go out with them again. Its silly, irrational and not working to finding a partner. I am not looking for perfection in anyone. I just know what I don't want to find. Maybe I am not ready to be doing this after all ... ACK!

Ok, I am going to sign off for now. I hope your day is wonderful!

Lost Amongst Confusion

Yes, that is the title for my post today. I entirely mean it too! Last night, I think that I finally got the message across to this gentleman that I would be interested in knowing more about him. However, its taken quite sometime to get to that point. He says he is shy ... I am not so sure that I could call it shy. Or maybe part of the problem is that I haven't been clear in my interest, who knows. Finally, I think we worked through that issue. So I'll keep you posted on how that goes. Otherwise, have a great start to the week!

Saturday Night Blues

Here it is almost ten o'clock on Saturday night and I have spent my evening between Mom's and home. I think I am just getting a little lonely. In all honesty, I have had a couple of requests to go out and do something tonight, but because of school, I have politely declined. However, I was able to my school work out of the way relatively early today ... leaving me with the day wide open. I have done all that I wanted to, but I sit here wishing that someone was with me. 

No, I don't know who that person would be. I am still searching for them. Perhaps, one day, I will find them. I'll continue to have hope.